Have you ever run into the brick wall of your self definition? Come to realize that your idea of you is holding you back? That you may well be so much more than you think you are?
--Negative self assessment coming, no need to be alarmed.--
I am late. I am scattered. I am messy and disorganized and likely to poop out before I succeed.
No matter what my actions, no matter how I have improved in these areas, I still hold these truths to be self evident.
Yesterday I realized... I don't have to believe I'm different to act differently. My actions don't need to be guided by my feelings, they don't need to follow my self definition. I can be Kira (thescrewupmess) but not procrastinate for right now.
I can act differently, just for the sake of acting differently. I can divorce my feelings from my actions. Act differently than the person I think I am, and maybe become the person I was meant to be.
P.S. I've attached the following which was written by Marianne Williamson in her book A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles. (FYI It is often incorrectly credited to Nelson Mandela.)
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”



